Saturday, March 8, 2008
these few days im gettin more and more depressed, i feel really stressed out, it just feels like everything is falling apart, n i'm in a mess...ugh, i hate it..
seriously, wats d point of school if you have nothing to do, i feel really confused and forgetful...u could actually tell from d school's last few days, i kept forgetting abt bringing stuffs and d worst was getting scolded and threatened br teacher, honestly, dis is a realy common thing, you don't have to be so blowed up!!!
i feel like having a suicide, no, really. I'm totally serious, and no one hardly talks to me at school, so i actually get bored, and even I don't feel like talking so much, i just feel like DYING, and to make things worse, ppl who loves to choose d wrong timing used that time to criticize me, and hurting me, making things worse for me again and again....seriously, you make me SO PISSED OFF!!!
Some of my friends asked me why i'm being so emo, no kidding, how can i NOT BE?!?!
I have no idea how to explain how I feel, but i can assure you one of the reasons is bcoz if my FAMILY, i meant my parents and my brother, I feel that they love me the least and neglects me most of the time, the worst is PICKING ON ME, you have no idea how suffering it is...all these started ever since i was quite small, and it just goes on like this till now, they pick on me just bcoz I'm the youngest, they blame everything on me just bcoz i'm the youngest, i really hate my life, i just hope i can find happiness sooner than soon...
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4:49 AM
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