Me and My depressing world

it's up to you.

2010-08-29T07:30:00.000-07:00

i have forgiven, AND forgotten (kinda) about the rows w THEM.
yet im not reli sure if they did the same. look, sorry i acted like a bitch and stuffs, although i didnt and still dont understand what i did to offend your fragile little selves.
anyway, i was trying to clear things off and you guys didnt respond but deliberately ignored my existence, what more to my efforts of trying to patch stuffs up.
fine.
i was pissed, but at least i tried.
maybe not hard enough, but hey, can't i get some brownie points for that?
your harsh responses struck me, and i wanted to give you guys a tight slap then and there.
but i didnt.
bcz i was stopped by my fellow band members and also because i dint have the courage to slap and be responsible for it.
but if i did, i would be a bigger bitch wont i?
i still dun get the me being a bitch part.
am i ignorant?
hah.
well, i forgave you guys for boiling my blood.i have forgotten almost completely about what had happened.but everytime i see you guys giving me the 'i-still-hate-you-look', well, it's kinda beyond my control my brain surfs back to the past incident.
but whatevs.
it's up to you.
if you guys can't get over some small thing like this, my heart feels for you, sorry for you.
and if you could forgive (whatev i did wrong n did nt even realize it, srsly), well good for you. and congatz, ur bitter personality just turned a notch sweeter.
just saying, y' noe.

is this war?

2010-05-15T08:41:00.000-07:00

it started out as a feeling.

yeah i could totally feel it. how obvious can you get?
the stares and the way you react when you see me.
wel, duh. it's SO obvious can't you at LEAST TRY??
okay so you guys are best fren. totally understand the way you guys feel.
like a pair of dominos. one gets mad the other does too.
yeah i totally know that feeling.
but this has to end.
we don't kick people. we are simply human beings made by God and are totally civilized ones.
we have reasons. but you juz don't care to even listen.
yeah.
we aren't much of friends now, need i say more about best friends?
one year of surprise parties, recreation parks, tears and this is hw it ends.
exactly what i thought so.
juz didn't think it would be so soon.
she does have a point. you change your friends each year.
but her point of view for you reasons of doing so?
i reli dun know.nor do i care anymore.
and fyi, if you hate us so much why bother trying to apologize being mad at all?
most importantly, do u NOT have d guts to apologize to someone FACE TO FACE?
facebook chat.
are you SERIOUS??
good things do come to an end.
except are you one of those good things?
who i make friends with you have to comment.
but i'm pretty sure you'll be pissed off your friggin ass if i ever insult your best friend.
great.
she does speak her mind, at least she's honest.
yeah, im talking about your friend.
sharp words she's got at her tongue.
but those are words. we have plenty of those shared words.
too bad.
you couldn't make it more than obvious. even infront of others.
grinning? smirking? disgusted? pissed?
oh please.
try harder to feed people your acts next time.
oh yeah.
i feel mean.
why should i sin for you?
i guess venting feelings out is better than keeping them in right?
yeah. we pretty much suck.
state the obvious.
tsk. you think those words bring us down?
think again.

the bus trip home

2010-04-04T06:53:00.000-07:00

sighhh time jz blinks fast doesnt it? i keep telling myself it's 2010 but my heart doesn't seem to accept that fact. why am i living each second so restlessly? i take things for granted alot and that's why i waste alot of my time.
i really miss my past, and maybe, that's why i don't seem to move on with my present life, at the same time, ironically, i'm planning my future.
it seems as if juz yesterday i graduated from prim school, a few hours ago in form 2 dj, and taman sea, a dream last night.and if it's true, i have wasted alot of time overnight.
i can't tell between good or bad.right or wrong.benefiting or stealing.happy or sad.my emotions are mixed up.i keep asking for me but taking from myself even more.i can't seem to be satisfied at all, and really ungrateful.
i have friends, but i can't tell their true self, one says this the other says that. i have family but the fights dun seem to be forgiven nor forgotten.i have Lucky,thankfully,a shoulder to lean on, but won't help much with solving the problems.i want so much things to be done prefectly, but i have just so little time. i want to have fun, i dun want to work, but i feel really useless and irresponsible.
i'm like a damsel in distress.
i'm not poor,nor am i rich, nor am i average.i'm like living in a world of my own , where my selfishness is the king.i want people to listen to what i say, but i dun want them to offer to listen. i want to speak whenever i want, and not when they asked me to.i dun want to feel like a burden to people, but i can't seem to please anyone.
i want to help people, but i can only listen, not help.i want to pursue my dreams, but the obstacle is so huge i'm not sure if there is even a road behind it.
what if i slept tonight and never woke up?what if i did?
i have faith but sometimes i have faith that i don't have faith.
i can't seem to see bright sides, instead i live in the dark side.i want to get out of there but always something pulls me back in.
i don't want to imitate people,and i can't differenciate between copy and inspired.
i try my best but i dun feel like i even tried at all.
i dread school.alot.i hate it so much.they say it's the best time of our lives.i dunno what to say.
i keep telling myself that i will live to my dream and satisfy myself, but i dunno if God will allow.i feel pressured with my duties, i want a break but i keep thinking of those burdens as i take that pause.
i tell myself all the things i want to do, accomplish them but i dun feel the will power from myself.everytime i'm sure of what interests me, someone buzzes me a zillion disadvantages of it.
i want to live, at the same time i feel like going home to the sky.i believe God, but i can't help but question him some things.
i'm trying to find my direction in life but i lost the compass.or maybe it was always in my hand, i just didnt know how to use it.
excuses rage in my mind.i'm losing control of myself.i want to step up, but i keep stepping down.i keep worrying about others, but i can't get over burdening myself with worries of myself.
depressed, i try to seek for refuge.i believe in God, i talk to him everyday,infact.i just wish i could talk to him face to face.maybe tonight.or maybe tomorrow.
i keep wishing and hoping things would come true, but it feels like i'm not giving enough effort to pursue them, and i keep losing faith.
i keep seeking for forgiveness, but i always make more huger mistakes.it's like a circle that doesn't end.and the circumference is not a smooth one.
i keep losing people, but i dunno how to gain.all that i had is slowly slipping away, friends and all.i try to snatch them back but i feel like an intruder.i shut myself from the mortal world, because i thought i could be independent.
then i realize, again, that maybe i'm really not that independent.
i keep lying to myself, and blaming them on others. i try to change but i dun have the heart to. my life revolves around irony and i'm tired of making myself the clown who frightens people.
i try to be patient, but i can't wait for myself.time is moving to quickly, i keep screaming my whole life.i found out i love crying, and i feel like a failure. i dun dare to say negative things, because i'm afraid i would curse myself, not others.
a selfish, worthless, person.probably an experiment gone wrong.
feel free to take me home, God.

I feel

2010-01-22T05:51:00.000-08:00

as if i have no direction in life anymore.
d direction i want to pick
ppl will stop me
i want to convince them that i can do it, really
so, so, so badly
and what did they do?

i know, i know,
specially u guys, u two A's
i noe u wan d best for me and u even
gimme d whole lesson on what depression will cause
first depression will cause major breakdown
then smth else i cant remember, wud u tell me agn
but i do remember d last one
u said depression will make someone
babble EVRYTHING to some RANDOM person
really?

the thing is,
i broke down yesterday
issit depression or not i dun reli noe
i feel as if my life is uncontrollable
someone or smth keeps getting d way
i try to be considerate
but brought all the trouble to myself
then i try to get something small
reli little back but they wudnt let
cause they think that i had too much
of what i have already had
so yeahh

the taking others for granted evry1 seems to be complaining abt
the person taken for granted is me
i blame myself for what others did
so d person who got hurt wud not hate them
and it really works
somehow
n now that person hates me

i keep asking myself
why am i doing this
issit for pride for fame for reputation
i dunno really
i dun care much about those stuffs but then
i know i just felt like i have to do it
so others wil have a better life
but apparently im being called a loser
a failure especially in leading some people
that was last yr n u noe hw i hated tht part
when i got d blame for smth
that wasnt so bad after all
some1 criticized me on how i look
they called me a slut cause of my fringe
im sry i dint noe i was d only one
so i jz smiled n said im sry i'll change
they did that infront of a thousand and one people
which later that year a JUNIOR reminded me
pin up ur hair lyk seriously
im sry i have to please evryone but me
so yeahh anyway after d whole commercial
later tht day i had to run lyk d wind
exhausted as u noe im nt tht type of girl
n despite i went for my first concert tht day
i was happy but i was bothered mentally n physically
n so i fell sick later that week
for 3 days i missed school cz i jz cudnt face
d fact tht sm ppl see me
with a disgust abt my looks

i feel as if im in my own world
a magical place
i must be getting crazy but i jz cnt stop to think
what did i do till d world is against me
did i murder did i kill
no im sure i didnt
i have lovely frens i understand
but i cnt help but feel lonely
i have an awesome God i can count on
i know but im struggling to stay spritually healthy all life long
im probably gonna breakdown agn after this post
but i cnt help bt notice
i cant seem to trust anyone
with my own secrets cause i just cant
bring myself to say
words i never told any person

i did actually a part of them
but the end is d beginning
n they tried to stop me dreaming
i was determined but so were they
determined to kill my thoughts
of ambitioning of trying
to have my own decisions
i know they want the best for me
but it feels smhw its d best for them
im getting crazy i reli dunno
what to say any longer

evrything i went to do
made evryone disagree somehow
im not super hot im not popular
but i have dreams that conquer those so called problems
i try hard to control and discipline myself
by going on diets and stopping my food
but my body wont cooperate
wth is wrong w me
my mind says stop eating my body says i cnt resist it
its nt even healthy its totally fat infact
but my body jz wants it n so i started to get pissed
with myself n with everybody
well they tried to make me eat
n kept saying im nt fat
to please them i ate tht gross thing
expecting them to eat with me
but instead THEY stop eating
n asked me to continue eating

stop forcing me n if u think
this whole post is abt my eating habits
well thts only a part n infact
thrs so much problems of mine in dis post
if u can identify then u're a pro
but im nt one to spill my guts onto a white blank screen
with squeaky black fonts
so too bad if u want to noe so badly
its ur choice to keep on investigate

n there we go agn

i tried to control my temper
but u made me lose it agn
i tried not to yell
but u forced me to do so
i tried to think positively
but u made evrything so negative
i tried to please everybody
but not everybody even noticed
i tried to discipline myself
but u had to tempt me n made me lose to me

u asked me to speak d truth so i did
but then u said i was lying but i reli wasnt
u asked me to help n so i did
but then u said i caused trouble instead
u asked me to accompany u n so i did
but ind end u ditched me to be with some1 else
u asked me to keep secrets n so i did
but u never kept for me n so i never trusted any1 anymore
u asked me to make my own decisions n so i gladly did
but then u stop me from making them just cause u think i cnt make it

u asked me to care for people and so i did
i tried as hard as i cud in any possible way
but then u said u hated it when i do

i think im going crazy

December =D

2009-12-29T00:25:00.000-08:00

hahah.Like forever rite people?? xD

Lol. okay. so dec is ending..n so is 2009 =( it's been a blasting year n u guys reli mean alot to me =D so anywayz, dis r stufs tht happened in Dec..

1. 2 Keruing hi-tea : we already had our class party and his hi-tea is actually a substitute of our class trip which we cancelled =( n apperently 4 people(me, Qian, Nicholas and Sean)turned up xD but still...we had it in Holiday Villa (love the cakes!) and after tht we went for bowling (who knew Hol Villa had a bowling arena?? O.o)

2. Scouts Party : in Aman Suria clubhse but i went thr late coz i wasn't feeling very well tht day and thus missed out d swimming part n d videos almost made me cry =(

3. Elevate camp 2009 =D : the most AWESOME-est Camp ever!! xD was in Le Paris Hotel in Port Dickson (n yes, just by d beach =D) a camp by DUMC aka Dream Centre..=D it was life-changing, n totally drew me closer to God (AWESOME =D) n i met new ppl (Elena, Joanna, Jillian n many more hot people xD) which was reli great n i reli love the beach xD plus, we get to stay in hotel rooms *gasps* with TV *more gasps* n comfy beds *gasps gasps gasps* xD d food wasn't reli bad either dey had punch! xD but i dint gt a chance to try them sadly =( mainly hung out w Auds n Jinny n Elena n Rachel n it was reli reli reli FUN xD wll DEFINITELY come agn nxt year =D

4. CF Christmas Party : Also in Aman Suria clubhse n totally fun! xD d first icebreaking game was fun n funny xD den jiin-may, auds, jin n i hung out in d park while eating and me kena bomb-ing by jiin n jin xD

"look, Audrey's Back!" me: "where?? *hear footsteps* Audrey u thr?" *some random Aman Suria resident jogging in d park stares at me as he walks past* *jiin n jin laughs out loud*

real funny guys! -.-

5. Rust In Rain : it was TOTALLY NOT my idea for the band! xD either Dharmiisha's or Timothy's cause I am NOT involved n Qian wanted to name us 'Rush' which to be honest, wud be MUCH better than RUST IN RAIN ( me: doesnt make sense! Dharmiisha: *luks at Tim* wt doesn't make sense? u put stufs in d rain n they'll rust rite? n i tot u were smart me: -.- i KNOW THAT but so WHAT? so stufs RUST? so?? i mean lyk ok imagine a reli grand n high class place n dey go lyk presenting... RUST IN RAIN!! ??? it sounds SO weird! Miisha: what? so what abt 'kings of leon' huh? 'linkin park'? ' 9 INCH NAILS??' me : *laughin* T.T) n so i cudnt stop d name xD but we had a blast in our band performance in timothy's church - SSMC n apparently many ppl thr were from bentong, which is my hometown n my parents' in fact i think one of them lived juz opposite!! *gasps* hahah but yeahh so tht's Rust in rain for u =) we did 21 Guns, Wake Me Up When September Ends, Mum Bai's Kau Ilhamku then 5 minutes break (n d guys did Smoke On d water, dun ask me why) then silent night, then instrumental Michael Jackson's Beat It then my two solos (keyboard n singing) - Our Master, Our Saviour by Viola and As The Deer, then d guys did Sultans of the Swing *sweet xD* n finally we ended w d supposingly Miisha's guitar solo but ended up doing it w Tim - Wish you were here...=D so yeahh thts basically it..n while we're hvin fun performing n me posting this blog, i wanna apolgize to someone out thr for not replyin ur txts n nt explainin why u were out. i'm sry. i did wt i cud. i'm reli reli reli sry i crossed ur life n made u suffer.i'm sry. i noe it wasn't fair at all to u n my apology won't make evrythin go round but yeahh i'm sry.reli.but maybe they were rite. i dint noe u tht well but i cud tell.maybe u shud change into a better person n mayb then ppl wil learn to like u more n welcome u more. i duno man.i aint gona see u wayz nxt yr bt yea hope u read dis.jz a piece of word. yea. im sry.

6. Frens ovr my hse : Auds, Ash, Yang Zhen, Jinny n Lyn. read Ash's blog for more details on her point of view xD well i mean dey were ovr to help me plan d bash thts in 2 more weeks n i'm invitin awesome ppl ovr (ps: everyone's awesome =D) n so yeahh..maybe not all, but u noe, more than some but less than all tht kinda thing? y noe? so yeahh i had to go off for band prac cz tht day was sat n d performance was on sun n so i had to prac in tim's hse which i found out on d 3rd/4th time in tim's hse then i realize tht lyn(shin yiing)'s hse was juz sorta-opposite his hse xD n so i went thr for a few mins after prac xD ohh n did i mention? ashlyn makes AWESOME COOKIES!!! xD yeah girl!! PLEASE WUD U BAKE SOME FOR D BASH??? PLSPLSPLSPLS xD

7. Christmas Day : well, it was awesome of course, bro n i shining turtles xD hahah its lyk on its shell dey have dis LED light thingy n wen in a dark room n u turn on d turtle d shell shines some stars n a moon on to d ceiling cool huh? xD it costs RM99 (mom forgt to tear off d price tag xD)

8. well..i'm almost done now but d year isn't over yet! (n so is d hols xD) i'll reli reli miss 2009...i had met alot of situations which made me had moodswings n stufs but u guys stil rock!! i'm so GLAD God answered my prayers!! =D

With Love and MOre to come,

carmen liao jia yuin =D

November 2009!! xDD

2009-11-30T05:03:00.000-08:00

as i hv nt written anyth for lyk foreverrrrr hahah well i'll jz update u w sm exciting events tht i will alwayss rememberr!! xD

1. Class 2 Keruing of 2009 - noisy but exciting; mean but hilarious; annoying but fun; shocking but surprising; bad but good; crazy but indescribable n def canNot be compared to othr classes xD
2. The CAST (DJ's Got Talent 2009!) - hahah i cried 3 times tht day before i went onstage( i was super worried coz i almost lost my voice since abt 3-4 days ago n i was scared i cudnt sing ) but then jinny n batai-frenz + othr performers were reli encouraging n made me cry (agn) yeapp though d sausages n mash made me laugh more than comforted -.- n then i went onstage, praying reli reli reli hard for d upteenth time b4 i went onstage, tried my reli reli reli best n d last of my voice onstage, finish performing, then came downstage, n cried.agn.yeap.coz i played d wrong note n i dint bow n i tot i sounded horrible.then when pn. julie was gonna announce d no.1 winner for d groups/bands, i went outside d dewan, afraid, we dint gt it, when i heard her announcing " The ... " n evry1 outside cheered n i was lyk "The WHAT?" n wei ann saw me n she was lyk, Go! u won! lolx i was so surprised/shocked i cudnt express anyth lol but yea..i reli reli reli LOST all DOUBTS of GOD, yea, lyk srsly, tht moment i was lyk, God, u're truly AWESOME!!! xD i'll nvr forgt this moment of my life..=D
3. Relationships - well.yea.d love side of my life isnt exactly too great.(n yeah i have one! O.o) i reli dunno wt i wan.girl meets guy.girl wans guy.girl gts ovr guy.guy wans girl.guy asks girl.girl confused.yeap.pretty much it.u shud noe wt kind of girl i m ppl hu noe me this well.kayz, wayz, when i said 'relationships', i meant friendships too.yeap.im reli reli reli proud (nt sombong kind) tht i hv awsm frenz!! hahah.well i cnt exactly hv d patience of Alison to name n describe evry person so detailed (which, btw, was RELI RELI RELI sweet of u!!great to hv u in my lifee!! xD) but yeahh..here goes sm ppl tht mean alot alot alot to me...
* Ashley Foo - u r an awsm best fren,n i wish u were in d same skul as me. xD
* Alison Seow - well, duhh u ARE my best fren, too, n i cnt imagine life in dj if i didnt meet u =D
* Voon Keng Seng - u noe what i wanna say n wt i tink, n thts wt made u special.=)
* Alicia Ng - a place to share my thoughts n provide awsm frenship tht i'll nvr forgt
* Ai Jin - for cheering me up smhw in wt u do
yeahh i hv lyk a zilllion more ppl to say abt bt it'll take lyk forevr, so i'll jz stop. u guys, whoever tht crossed my life, juz made it better!! xD

well, nt exactly all.but i guess thts when d ppl tht do d opposite of makin ur life better builds up ur character n attitude thus make u more emotional.

I'm an emotional girl.

4. Scouts - well, i did go to d MAJOR SCOUTS CAMP OF THE YEAR - TRIPLEX VORTEX!! woohh..hahah.i think it reli helps ppl to build character n physically n mentally.yeap.i had REAL fun and met new n cool ppl--Alvin, Jo Yee, Mun Keat etc etc. it's reli a camp not to be missed..my first time out into d nature, d forests, n building ur own campsite.yea i love dis part especially, i love my campsite! it's lyk a mini-house, only open-air.hahah.reli reli cute.xP so im tellin u, if u hv d chance to go Triplex, dun waste it!! xD it's worth it..
5. Family - Dad's Birthday =D we celebrated in seaview restaurant..noodle was awesome xD first time celebratin w grandma!! n the cake is DE-LI-CIOUSS!!! xD I LOVE u DADDY!! xD
6. Choon Ying - YEAHH da GAL is BACKK!! xD after lyk 3 yrs..hahah n she said moz prob cmin bck after 3 yrs lol oh yeahh n she looks SO MUCH lyk a WESTERNER n her hair grew LONGER n she's SOOO prettyy!! xD (ps: i'm NOT lesbo okay, m totally straight xD) hahah so yeah anywayz i reli reli reli miss tht girl laa so shin yiing n i went out w her during yukchai grad day xD n i gt to spend half d day w her includin her followin me to d dentist xD then 1-U hahah it was reli AWESOME to hv her bck xD
7. I can't wait for Dec =D

blog-surfingg..xDD

2009-09-02T07:24:00.000-07:00

jz fin blog-surfingg..n i jz wanna say im glad my life is juz lyk this!! xPP

sean: hey wt course r u gonna pick in college?
me: umm..i dunno...
sean: (shock)what?! u hv 3 MORE YEARS to go, n u DUNNO?!
me: (thinking: he qi sin adi ah) uhhm..i mean..ok fine.what r YOU gonna choose?
sean: ('proudly') im gonna take POLITICAL SCIENCE!!
me: ohh uhhuh okayy, gud luck den
sean: hey u're gonna see me in newspapers okay..
me: hahahhah rite...*dot dot dot*

i couldn't bomb sean, so i jz dint bother to.
Later...

Me: hey wt r u gonna choose wen u go to college?
qian: ori-smth-smth..
me: what does or-smth-smth means?
qian: cancer
me: O.O u gonna b a doctor?
qian(serious): yes
me: ohh uhhuh
qian: wt r u gonna do?
jiang: yeahh
me: uhhmm it's a surprise.
jiang: surprise?
qian:...
me: yeahhh
jiang: oh i noe u're gonna do d cosmetics ting...
qian: hahah yeahh!
me: *dot* . *dot* . *dot* .

well...it's a surprise!! nt bcz i dunno wt to choose, i alredi did since i was abt 12..=DDD i jz love to surprise ppl n see their faces..xDD

Po Po (grandma) juz came to our hse today to stay...nt sure when she's going bck bt she cooks REALLY AWESOME DISHES!!! *sigh* i wish grandpa wud jz gt bck his 'semangat' n try to walk, coz we miss him so muchh...=((

Get well REALLY REALLY SOON!!! =DD

loving d way i m nw,

Ciao! xDD

Aly's 'surprise' Party

2009-08-22T06:04:00.000-07:00

*this post wud b written in a speech form, dun ask me why..*

Firstly, i wan 2 thank all the fun God gave us today..from beginning till end. =))

Secondly, i wan 2 thank all those awesome ppl who came to attend this party and helped me organize this wonderful party full heartedly but seemed to be effortless.

Thirdly, i wan 2 apologize for those who just stood me up ( ffk ) me. i made a mistake inviting u guys. I'm so sry. i dun wan to sound lyk a mean v B person bt srsly, u guys shud hv told me EARLIER.

Forthly, i wan to thank those who ffk-ed/dint care much abt attendin d party or not ppl.u made me realize how unimportant n 'kelefe' i m.sry i wasted ur time.

Fifthly, i wan to say smth reli out loud bt i dun wanna make a big deal out of it.sm of u shud noe cz i told u guys.

Thank you once again for the people who were willing to come, late or not.At least u guys kept ur promise.Thanks so much.

Hope u love ur 'surprise', Alison!!=)))

Love you guys..xDD

...

2009-08-21T08:52:00.000-07:00

o k.anywayz,

jz a lil more space.so i'll blab a lil abt ytd..

Hari Kemerdekaan celebration was cool!! i LOVE LOVE LOVE Rayshell, Wei Ann, *guy in hat* and *girl playin piano(forgot her name.xDD)*!!! ROCKK!!!

*sigh*

Wish Shakila, Syah, Aly, Ee Ling n I will gt to sing nxt performance!! xDD

Wooohh... Love u guys!! *Ash, shuttup abt Bolt alredi* * smiley face*

=)

Holidays

2009-08-21T08:44:00.000-07:00

holidays ppl!!! finally d week has ENDEDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!

AHAHAHAHZZZ...

ok.

jz so u noe, im wastin spaces on dis post

so tht

d proposal pix wil

'go' away

bcz retarded me

does no no no know

how to make

dem

*smaller*

xDD

CIAO!!!!!!! * Tracy in 'Hannah Montana' accent *

HAHAZ..=)))

Sitting on the pavement

2009-08-17T06:37:00.000-07:00

I was there.i looked there.i sat there.
He was there.he walked there.he stood there.
She was there.she saw him.she nudged me.
i turned to stare.i saw him walk.Past me again.

what am i trying to find?
did he see me did he not?
what am i trying to do?
to just see his face then what?

Sigh.i dun wanna freak ppl out anymore.i noe im scary.

bye.

The Proposal..xDD

2009-08-02T08:39:00.001-07:00

ok.i jz watched 'The Proposal' ytd in 1-U.my dad wanted to anyway.Sandra Bullock's his fav actress..-.- n guess wt? it's TOTALLY COOOOLL!!! xDD u guys shud wtch it.it's hilarious.bt it made me cry too...=( yeah.i gt tht fr my mom.d whole easy-to-cry-even-if-it's-a-movie thing.n yea..if u're readin dis, stop laughin, Ashley!!

it's awesome.if u guys r headin to d theatres, PICK THISS!! wtch it agn n agn..u'll LOVE IT!! i noe i did..xDD n ryan reynolds luk hot in most of it...

Falling for a hot-slash-cute-mixed-blood-gorgeous-younger-guy-who-has-a-cartoon-character-name...xDD

2009-07-31T07:08:00.000-07:00

o k.dis is stupid.i alwiz tell myself since i was young to fall for an OLDER dude.or at least, d same age.i rejected a form 1 guy who i hardly know.but now..this...omg...o k.i dun wanna name dis dude but i tink sm of u guys noe hu he is already.

Shakila said two stufs tht i rmb.1 of it which is wrong.d othr which is so right.
she said i know how u feel.u feel tired huh.*yes i m.tired of fallin in Luv agn n gtin false hopes..* n she said i bet when u go back u dun care whr u throw ur bag n jz sleep..*which is wrong.bcz i dun do tht since i was 11.*o k.so wayz..dis dude...i jz met him reli reli reli recent n yeahh hes reli nice n yeahh d guy w d gentlemen looks.xDD wt i lyk!!(unlyk *ahem'shole*)d thing is..syah saw him first n went *gasp* hot guy! i dint even bother to look bt wen i turned n saw him i was lyk yeahh he is HOT!!!

hahaz.i gues he gv me false hopes too.dun wanna talk much abt him cz i jz knew him n plus its pathetic-lah.i dun wanna b d love-wimp anymore.im still under training on hw to nt lose urself wen u meet sm1 u lyk..

thrs so much to write about since d twins' birthday...yeahh.so as sm of u peeps noe, im an emo girl.its nt tht i LYK to.its simply bcz it's lyk im LIVED to.sighz.i duno.i had a dream last nite.4gt most of it.bt i'll tel u one part.its abt my couz' family n my family.saw my couz fr tmn sea in yuk chai(i noe, dreams nwadays hv reli sm imagination!!)n he dint even say hi he jz luked at me in a hateful way n went in2 d car 2 go home.which is kinda wt it feels lyk nw.why cnt families jz gt along? i mean, we R RELATED...i duno hw i'll feel exactly if he sees dis.bt all i wan2 wish for is for our families to get along WELL.plsplspls cn v STOP FIGHTING? i dun wan a childish family w childish relatives. i wan it to b lyk d past.wen we're young.n no1 is here to quarrel.no love issues.no worries.at least, nt these much.sigh.anyway, i tink im gona stop fallin for him.i'll try.i mean, i nvr meant to fal for a YOUNGER guy.n dis time it's...ugh.anyway, lyk my mom said."it's jz puppy love".lyk wt aijin said"infatuation".bt aly tells me abt her tui tea hus gtin married to her highskul sweetheart.

i tink i'll migrate to australia.

hey

2009-06-15T07:22:00.000-07:00

HELLO Special Awesome PPL!!!=DD
well.
skul's bck.n d torture's bck.at least 4 me.im sry.i gues i jz cnt stand bein idle in d same place for HOURS..unless its on9...xD
sighh.hahahs.i noe.d more i blog lyk this, less ppl wud luk at my blog..bt heyy, life isnt abt popularity, its abt who u r.n (quote Pn Ang, BC tui teacher)if evry1 is d same, evry1 is equally smart, pretty, handsome, n has d same character..d world wud b jz BORING.oh god.i feel lyk cryin nw.2 b honest, i miss all my frens so much.frens tht migrated.frens in othr skuls.BEST FRENS in othr skuls.omg.u guyss..Jane, Choon Ying, Michelle, Shin Yiing, Ashley...oh shit.n my cousins.n i came up w dis STUPID theory tht huevr i meet in my whole entire life is bcz of fate.so i better grab hold n appreciate wt i hv.d thing is.i dunno hw 2.
hhahahs.i noe me.jz nt tht well.i LOVE GOD.i hate religion-hates.i love my past.emo abt my present.excited abt my future.i love music.i hate Grd 6-8 music theory.i love singing.i hate sore throats.i love writing songs.i hate using d same tune.i love my dog.i hate it tht he's still nt toilet trained.i love my friends.i hate it wen dey ditch me.i love my family.i hate it wen dey threaten me.i love my cousins.i hate it wen dey turn deir bck 2 my family n i.i love my relatives.i hate it wen dey hate us.i love my grandparents.i hate it wen any of dem gets sick.i love lukin out for ppl.bt i hate it wen dey dun appreciate.i love readin.bt hate being called a nerd.i love celebrities.i hate it wen dey gv bad influences.i love ppl who can talk 2 me.i hate it wen ppl shout.i love ppl thts eco-frenly.i hate ppl who wan 2 torture their future generation with their selfishness.i love my life.bt sumhow, hates it.
i guess ppl jz wont b satisfied.we're greedy.admit it.we want more n more things wen we have 'more n more things'.
Life isn't fair.bt hey, u can still have a dream.n live to it.
thts what i'll do.

Reach for d stars.n live ur dreams.

anothr tag fr aly..gues my blog wil b full of dese stufs soon

2009-06-10T06:47:00.000-07:00

100 truths
001. Real name: Liao Jia Yuin
002. Nickname(s): Carmen, Jay n on...
003. Age: 14 yrs n 5 months
004. Horoscope: Aquarius (water!)
005. Male or Female: Female
006. Elementary: SRJK(c) Puay Chai 1(std1-3), SRJK(c) Yuk Chai (std4-std6--6H!!xDD)
007. Middle School: SMK Taman S.E.A ( f1), SMK Damansara Jaya
008. High School: SMKDJ.i tink.
009. College school: (guess! xDD)
010. Hair colour: Black
011. Long or short: moderately long
012.Loud or Quiet: depends.
013. Sweats or Jeans: Jeans
014. Phone or Camera: Both.
015. Health freak: smtimes.wen on diet..xDD
016. Drink or Smoke: Drink.duh.smoke's jz DISGUSTING...
017. Do you have a crush on someone: a lil.
018. Eat or Drink: both.
019. Piercings: yeahh.
020. Tattoos: no.Fortunately.
021. Social or Anti-Social: Social(god d author of dis tag srsly hv nth better 2 ask)
022. Righty or Lefty: Rightyyyy
023. First piercing : 10 years old
024. First relationship: pls.dun.ask.
025. First Best Friend: mm.my MOM?
026. First Award: do i luk lyk i rmb stufs lyk dis?
027. First Kiss: cmin soonn..*grins*
028. First Pet: an ant.xD
029. First Big Vacation: uhhh uhh.Australia or China..dun reli rmb...
030. First Love at first sight: ...im sry.m i suppose 2 NAME him?
031. First Big Birthday: a month's old.
032. First Surgery: dun curse.
033. First sport you joined: swimming.
034. Orange or Apple Juice: both.
035. Rock or Rap: BOTH!!
036. Country or Screamo: country..sry i cnt stand ppl screamin n dey cl tht music.or worse, a SONG..
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: both.
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: Both.(*grin* sry im greedy)
039. Night or Day: Night.def NOT a mornin person.
040. Sun or Moon: Moon.i hate 2 much heat.
041. TV or Internet: internet.
042. Playstation or xbox: im sry?
043. Kiss or hug: aww..both!
044. Iguana or turtle: turtle.
045. Spider or bee: none thank you.
046. Fall or spring: Fall?
047. Limewire or iTunes: duno d diff.
048. Soccer or baseball: Baseball? *smth new 4 a change*
049. Eating: Food.
050. Drinking: Anyth thts nt 2 sweet or bitter or make me wan2 puke on sm1.
051. Excitement level: depends.
052. I'm about to: off as soon as i fin ans ur retarded questions..
053. Listening to: d distant sound fr d radio nxt room.
054. Plan for today: sleep.hahah.no srsly.
055. Waiting for: d day time decides 2 stop for me.
056. Energy level: kinda.low?
057. Thinking of someone: yeah.stop askin d same thing.
058. Want kids: OF COURSE!! dey r d CUTEST!!!
059. Want to get married: OMG..I DOOO!!!
060. When: umm..around 24-26!!
061. How many kids do you want: hmm.depends.*winks*
062. Any name in mind: Jack.hahah.i jz love Pirates of the Caribbean..xDD
063. What did you want to be when you were young?: a TEACHER!! lol den i GREW UP n i realized my HUGE MISTAKE...=D
064. Careers in mind: actress-singer!!xDD *most definitely*
065. Mellow future or wild: BOTH!!
066. Something you would never try: DRUGS
067. When do you want to die: when im satisfied with my life - as in my kids are grown up and stuff
068. Lips or Eyes: EYES...
069. Romantic or Funny: um.duno? xDD
070. Shorter or Taller: oh noo.i dint c dis cmin!!
071. Protective or Caring: uh.both bt more on d caring part.or protective part.o i duno.
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: uhh?
074. Sensitive or Loud: depends.
075. Hooked-up or Relationship: Relationship..=)
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: trouble maker.at times.
077. Muscular or Normal: Normal.
078. Kissed a stranger: eww no.unless he's hot! ^^ jk.
079. Broke a bone: no thank god.
080. Lost glasses or contacts: yeah?
081. Ran away from home: almost did.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense: LOL! no...
083. Killed somebody: NEVER!!!
084. Broken someone's heart: yeah.im sry.bt u did it first.
085. Had your heart broken: yeahh.
086. Been arrested: hahah.no.
087. Cried when someone died: yeaah.*i miss u*
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: y do i hv a FEELING u JZ asked DIS?
089. Yourself: im..umm.wt?
090. Miracles: yeahh!! * God is AWESOME!! xDD*
091. Love at first sight: told ya.
092. Heaven: YES!!
093. Santa Claus: No.made up by ppl hu r bored.
094. Tooth fairy: No.well he/she certainly did NOT leave any prez 4 ME...
095. Kiss in the first date: noo.
096. Angels: oh yeahh.
Answer Truthfully (i tink i did jz nw)
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now?: yeah.*im gonna cry soon if u con 2 ask dis*
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now? : nt SERIOUSLY happy.
099. Do you believe in God? : OF COURSE!!! =DD
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 6 people
-Ashley
-Ashlyn
-Belinda
-Rui Ci
-Ai Jin
-Nadya

Tagged by Aly.

2009-06-10T05:57:00.000-07:00

There's no first question which means i have to do less of the tag :D
2. How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
ugh.anothr day nearer 2 skul.
3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo with?
jeez.i dun rmb.
4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
i duno.
5. Will you ever donate blood ?
yea.sure.
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
duh.
7. Do you want someone to be dead?
nope.i used 2.bt i learnt tht death is freaky.
8. What does your last text message say?
can u cl
9. What are you thinking right now?
damn.dad wants me 2 stop d com at 10.
10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
yeahh..=I
11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
uh.12 smth smth.
12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?
bro bought it fr planet shaker's concert..O.O
13. Is someone on your mind right now?
yeah.dun ask hu.
14. Who was the last person(s) who text you?
Diana Cecelia Chong

Random people I tag :)
1. Ashley
2. Yi Lin
3. Ashlyn
4. Joan
5. Pui Yan
6. Mei Yan
7. Vi Ki
8. Brandon
9. Liang Jun
10. Cheryl

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?
no1.
16. Is no.3 a male or a female?
Female.
17. If no.7 and no.1 get together , would it be a good?
god NO!!
18. What is no.1 studying about?
Mr..*ahem*
19. When was the last time you chatted with them?
them?
20.Is no.4 single?
AhAHAH..yeah.my teddy bear..xDD
21. Say something about no.2.
skinny n envious of her cz no matter hw much she eat she jz dun gt FAT..
22. What do you think about no.3 & no.6 being together?
rite..thts a) sick n b) dey dun even noe each othr.
23. Describe no.9.
luks RELI short bt un42nately TALLER than me. =.=
24. What will you do if no.6 n no.7 fight?
oh.wow?
25. Do you like 8?
omg..in WT WAY?

...

2009-06-10T05:13:00.000-07:00

ahahah..kk fine...my blog IS memang BORING...bt hey better than no blog rite..xDD BTW, VIVEK u DUN hv a B-L-O-G..
hey.i cnt help being lame.its my nature..=P
so anywayz, i went 2 China, n blablabla i fell sick n i tot i had HINI or H1N1 or smth(4gv d girl 4 nt readin d news)cz i had fever, sore throat, RELI tired til i cudnt walk etc etc symptoms.bt i lacked of d flu.so yeahh.mayb i had HINI.for A NITE..hu noes? =0
hahah..n b4 i noe it, evry1 wud b stayin away fr me..hey im jk ok.

sigh.been.um.lukin at sm past pix n vids.i gues im nt ovr HIM yet.thoroughly.i mean, hey.i had feelings.n i STILL hv.n wt makes d diffnce is tht U jz HAD 2 drill a HUGE HOLE in me.k.i wont talk lyk dose 'i feel empty w/o u ppl'.bt smtimes i reli do feel lyk tht.(and i REGRET)

rite.stop changin d subjct.China.rite.it's...o k.i gues.i reli felt for dose beggars n poor ppl though.n i met my dad's fren called David hu luked almost EXACTLY lyk my ex-choir teacher.to which he responded "r u sure? my looks r v UNIQUE wan wor..." n i had to go "..."

hahah.been away 2 china.i felt great 2 b bck.yet i feel as though i dun belong to d rite place..sigh? im gonna hv 2 search d whole world for d 'me place'.

crap.im babbling away.agn.yet u stil duno wt i hv in mind.well.i'll surprise u guys.hu noes wt wil happen 2 me?

xDD

jeez

2009-05-10T03:07:00.001-07:00

sighing.seems to be a routine for me nowadays.exams comin.sigh.homework a mountain.sigh.cnt go out.sigh.lack of sleep.sigh.see Madiana.sigh.wt my point is? i reli hv no idea.i seem 2 b in a trance.where d air is hypnotisin me.evrytin passes by me so quickly.u dun notice at first.den u'll realize soon.frens.diff places.KL, Sabah, Australia.miss dem all.i reli do.do dey rmb me? god noes.

TAGGED AGN!! --by Sam Vi Ki ( d awsm girl in Angsana--wahh later she perasan pula xDD )

2009-05-05T08:19:00.000-07:00

1)The person who tagg you is: Sam Vi Ki
2)Your relationship with him/her is: Another gila fren
4) The most memorable moments with them: 6H!!! xDD
5) The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is: ni zai jiang ni hen fei? ni hen sou o k? ( chinese--you said u're fat? you're very skinny o k?)
6) If he/she becomes your lover, you will... : im sry, i dun approve of homosexuality
7) If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve at:
8) If he/she becomes yr enemy, what would you do: um.i dun tink negatively..
9) If he/she becomes yr enemy, the reason will be: she's taller than me
10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: say hi
11) Your overall impression on him/her: she's a reli nc girll..n xtremely smart..hu luvs anime.oh god, i hate anime..xP
12) The characteristic you love most about yourself: ya think?
13) The characteristic you hate most about yourself: u wont wanna noe
14) The most ideal person you want to be is: i tink i ans dis question b4, pls luk check d prev tag out..
15) For people who care and love you, say something to them: God LOVES you, n so do I!!! xoxo MUAXXX
Pass this quiz to 10 ppl who you want to know how they feel about you.....
1. Ai Jin
2. Alison
3. Yi Lin
4. Ashley
5. Ashlyn
6. Nadya
7. Andrea
8. Calvin
9. Liang Jun
10. Cheryl
17) Who is 6 having a relationship with?: umm..no one i tink
18) Is 9 a male or a female? : Female
19) What is 2 studying at the moment? : study?! hahah..d only thing she wud b studyin is abt MILK!!!
20) Who was the last person you had a chat with? : my maid..
21) What kind of music does 8 like ?: hah..MASQUERADE!!! lol i dunno..
22) Does 1 have any siblings?: Noo, bt she has GORGEOUS NEIGHBOURS!!!
23) Is 4 single? : NO..she has a 'wife', lol jk, u stil cn grab her GUYS!!
24) What's the surname of 6?: um..Nadeeya dot dot dot?
25) What's the hobby of 5 ?: OOH..music!!
26) Do 7 and 9 get along well?: i hv no idea seriously...lol??
27) Where is 10 studying at? : SMK Taman SEA
28) Say something casual about your eyes : umm..i hv double eyelids? xDD
29) Have you tried developing feelings for 2?: omg NO!! do i sound lyk a les?!
30) Where does 9 live?: umm..i noe he's rich la...
31) What colours does 4 like?: uhh..yellow? lol
32) Are 5 and 1 good friends : umm..normal frens i guess
33) Does 2 like 7?: welll..dey r pretty close frens...
34) How did u get to know 8 ?: same class, and my tmn sea best fren's ex...wooh hahah..
35) Does 1 have any pets?: yeahh..Bart, Enzian, Ludwig n Johann..hahah...im sure she TREATS dem lyk PETS!!
36) Is 7 the sexiest person in the world: ahh..EVERYONE is SEXYYY!! xDDD
37) Are you sexy?: Maybe? hahah
38) What am i doing now?: wt do u tink?

sigh

2009-05-04T07:12:00.000-07:00

well.it's ovr nw.he's ovr.blah.dun reli wanna talk abt him cz 1 of d only thing tht attracted me to him is d fact tht he plays VIOLIN..
yeah.wtv.wayz, we're jz frens nw.nth more.
wayzz, i watched slumdog milionaire last month, n since i hvnt update 4 along time...slumdog is totally worth it!! it reli reli reli deserved 2 b Oscar-winning even thou d children actors dint gt rich, as wt mom said, bt still...i tink its reli awsm n well sad, n 4 dose hu noe me well, u noe wt sad stufs do to me...so yeahh..i wil BUY d DVD MOST DEFINITELY..n BUY ORIGINAL!!!!!!! xDD lolx..quite cheap wt, rm20 onli..lol m serious.*sigh* n d children actors r as adorabe as aijin's chinese-german nghbr kids--Bartholomew, Enzian & Ludwig ( deir twins ) n Johann. d Heldeis family..*sighhz* 4 dose hu luv children, u wil FALL FOR DEM. IMMEDIATELY. bt wtv, d children actors r xtremely talented, specially d young Jamal (CUTE!!!)..sighzzz.i guess i hv dis reli reli reli soft spot for lil kids..=))

wayz, skills camp.yea yea, thx Aly.. skills camp was cool. bt quite scary, cz i kena screwed by Sir Colin ( wt i gt for being an inexperienced Patrol Leader for d 1st time.. )for smth i dun reli wan2 mention..sighzz.his voice stil haunts me.lolx.jkk.wayz, gratz 2 Lucas, Calvin n Nadia for gtin d BEST PATROLs..o well. i still luv red tornado..xDD btw thts my patrol name, dis yr's skills camp theme was JUSTICE LEAGUE..nt bad actually, bt sry 2 say i dun watch cartoons n dunno wth is justice league.

wayz, im reli PROUD of my patrol -- Red Tornado aka Rajawali 2
Patrol:
Liao Jia Yuin ( PL!! xD )
Lee Liang Jun ( APL..lololololxx )
Chin Qi Hong ( QMA..haha )
Hong Heng Fai ( QMM..he wil b o k if he wasnt BLUR )
Lim Huey Xia ( Artist no.2..lolx LJ claims to b artist no.1..yea rite)
Foong Wen Hao ( dis Cenggal guy tht surprises me on wt he cn do at times )
Kok Wai Lynn ( F1 girl thts 1 of d best PB here )
Ting Kok Hui ( F1 RICH guy..im serious...n nt bad PB oso... )
Kiew Wee Ting ( F1 girl hu 1 nemesu claimed her 2 b a GUY ..omg 1 nemesu ppl reli reli jobless, wayz, she skipped sm meetings, n well, yea, she's reli quiet )

kk...wayz i tink skills camp was quite lucky 4 me bcz, well, v dint reli had time 2 build gadgets n evrythin..so yea...i dint reli had 2 con bein screwed by sirs..n d 1st nite was absolutely LATE!!! lyk, i slept for 2 hrs, slept at 4am, woke up at 6 am..d 2nd morn was embarassin, eventhou i gt 2 sleep earlier, 1 smth, i wanted 2 silent d bloody PL whistle so i cn hv more sleep, n of cz, sir was persistent..n i finally DRAGGED myself out of d suffocating tent n almost tripped ovr d bloody string tht marks d girls' territory..n omg all d PLs were staring at me...*blush* hAhA wayz, it was reli tiring for me n i LOST my PENKNIFE..wich is reli reli WTF bcz my dad totally slaughtered me wen i told him...*shivers* o well..tink i'll ciao nw..BYEEEE!!!!! xDD

2nd Tag...O.o

2009-05-04T06:33:00.000-07:00

hmm..k dis tag is fr lin...

1)The person who tagged you is: Nicole Hu Yi Lin

2)Your relationship with him/her is: Friends, duh.

3)Your first impression of him/her is : gila skinny stick (wooh!! xDD jk)

4) The most memorable moments with them: 6H...=))

5) The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is: yellow yellow jia yuin n "gud lukin french fry!!!!!!!!!!!!"

6) If he/she becomes your lover, you will... : be mentally illed from d beginning

7) If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve at: bringing me 2 MPH constantly

8) If he/she becomes yr enemy, what would you do: matchmake her w a tree..ooh

9) If he/she becomes yr enemy, the reason will be: she's skinnier than me.

10) The most desired thing you want to do for him/her now is: tell her im sry bt my printer sot adi

11) Your overall impression on him/her: gila wan

12) The characteristic you love most about yourself: um.high? i hv awsm family, couz n FRENS!!!!!!!!!

13) The characteristic you hate most about yourself: i sleep late n i hv a huge addiction 2 fud

14) The most ideal person you want to be is: an awsm Christian-talented Avril Lavigne!!xDD okok, Fergie

15) For people who care and love you, say something to them: GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO I!!

Pass this quiz to 10 ppl who you want to know how they feel about you.

1. ASHLEY HWONG ( sound familar? xDD )
2. ASHLYN LEE
3. ALISON SEOW
4. JOAN TENG
5. BELINDA LEONG
6. AMELIA LOH
7. TAN AI JIN
8. LEE LIANG JUN
9. BRYAN WIN
10. TRICIA PANG

ok..thts wt i cn rmb fr my linked ppl...o yeah n any1 hu feels lyk doin d tag..b my guest

37) Are you sexy?: hmm..at times, hell yeah!! xDD

38) What am i doing now?: waitin 4 d printer 2 magically refill black ink by itself.xDD

ConFUsiOn

2009-04-08T08:12:00.000-07:00

My Number.
Strange.
Is he lying?
I'd nvr noe.
WAS HE LYING?
I wan2 noe.
d thing is,
he n HE are diff Hes.
N u're prob confused nw.
HE was history.
he is..i duno. Future?
God Knows.
den suddenly HE came up 2 my vision.
N...
*heartbeats*
bt wen he talks to me.
*nerve-ous*
only tiny part of ppl in smkdj noes wt i mite b talking abt.i tink.
den it cn only mean u guys understand me better than i do.
n u guys r rite.

Tag!! (from Aly, my first tag btw xPP)

2009-04-01T08:59:00.000-07:00

1. Last beverage→ water

2. Last phone call → Pn Madiana ( i noe!! xP)

3. Last text message→ Brian Ho

4. Last song you listened to→ my msg alert

5. Last time you cried → yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice → no

7. Been cheated on? um, no

8. Kissed someone & regretted it? no

9. Lost someone special? yeah

10. Been depressed? Practically evryday

11. Been drunk? Almost did

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. Blue ( d peaceful yet sad colour w a hint of love)

13. Turqoise ( d perfect mixture of d awsm blue and green)

14.Purple ( Elegance!)

HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends → yeah!! n dey're AWSM!!!

16. Fallen out of love → meanin?

17. Laughed until you cried → hmm i tink so?

18. Met someone who changed you→ oh yeahh

19. Found out who your true friends were→ hopefully yes

20. Found out someone was talking about you→ OHH YES!!

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ no!

23. How many kids do you want to have→ it depends...>.<

24. Do you have any pets → YEAH!!! I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU LUCKY!!!!! xDDD

25. Do you want to change your name→ YEah!!!

26. What did you do for your last birthday→ um. ppl splash me, blablabla

27. What time did you wake up today? around 10... n i kena

28. What were you doing at midnight last night→ fin on9in i tink

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for → The ONE n my future career n

30. Last time you saw your father → in his bedroom

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life – mm...nt reli sure my eyesight n skin? *sighsss*

32. What are you listening to right now → Ashlyn's voice- im on d phone

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → lol no dun tink so

34. What's getting on your nerves right now? → my mom nagging me 2 gt off

36. What's your real name → Liao Jia Yuin

37. Relationship Status → Single, anyone wants me? lolx jk

38. Zodiac sign → Aquarius

39. Male or female→ Female

40. Elementary→ SJK(c)Puay Chai 1/SJK(c)Yuk Chai

41. Middle School → SMK Taman SEA/SMK Damansara Jaya

42. High school → SMK Damansara Jaya

43. Hair color → black ( mayb a hint of brown)

44. Long or short → quite long

45. Height → oh god, dis is insulting, around 158 or smth

47. What do you like about yourself? I don't smoke

48. Piercings → each ear!!

49. Tattoos → hmm..used 2 hv temporary's hahah

50. Righty or lefty → Righty!!

FIRSTS :

51. First surgery → none

52. First piercing → Std 4

53. First tattoo → wen i was young, a temporary mickey&minnie tattoo lolx

54. First best friend → God knows

55. First sport you joined → (as in competition? badminton as in learning? swimming)

56. First pet → Some stray ants ( i was reli lonely okay)

57. First vacation→ zzz ( issit counted wen im nt bornt yet bt my mom was pregnant w me?)

58. First concert → I wish

59. First crush → umm..dunno?

60. First alcohol drink → Wine

RIGHT NOW:

61. Eating → nothing

62. Drinking → nothing

63. I'm about to → switch off d laptop

64. Listening to → when my mom's gonna bark agn

65. Waiting for → dis tag 2 end

YOUR FUTURE :

66. Want kids? Duh

67. Want to get married? Duh

68. Careers in mind? Singer-actress!! xDD

WHICH IS BETTER IN A PARTNER?

69. Lips or eyes → Eyes, def

70. Hugs or kisses → hmm both!!

71. Shorter or taller → taller!!

72. Older or Younger → well...nt 2 young nt 2 old

73. Romantic or spontaneous → Both!!

74. Nice stomach or nice arms → wt kind of Q is dis? of course ARMS..

75. Tattoos or piercings→ might b able 2 cope w piercing, bt nt 2 much, n NO TATTOOS

76. Sensitive or loud → Sensitive, but not too quiet either

77. Hook-up or relationship → relationship!!

78. Trouble maker or hesitant→ none, pls

HAVE YOU EVER :

79. Kissed a stranger → No

80. Drank hard liquor → Duno

81. Lost glasses/contacts → um, broke, yes

82. Sex on first date → Eww, NO

83. Broken someone's heart → YES

84. Had your own heart broken → by breaking his heart

85. Been arrested? God, NO

86. Turned someone down → Yes

87. Cried when someone died → Dis is bullshit (DUH)

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

89. Yourself → i'll agree w ALy--50/50

90. Miracles → YES!! (Specially from GOD!!xDD He's SO AWESOME!!!)

91. Love at first sight → oh yeahhhhh!!

92. Heaven → yeah

93. Santa Claus → No

94. Kissing on the first date? → Yea

95. Angels → yea

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → yes, mayb, i duno

97. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time? → No im nt desperate ty v much

98. Do you believe it's possible to remain faithful forever? OF COURSE!!

99. What's the one thing you cannot live without? God, Jesus, Family, Friends, Lucky, Music n practically evrythin GOOD

100. Tag 10 ppl? who?
1. Ai Jin
2. Joan
3. Ashlyn
4. Cheryl
5. Amelia
6. Kimberly
7. Yi Lin
8. Rui CI
9. Vi Ki
10. Belinda

hmm..

2009-03-29T03:50:00.000-07:00

weeh.weekend.earth hour.did u guys did it?i did.hse completely black til my granparens cm bck n swtiched on 1 lite.(ain't my fault, tried me best)wt did u guys do durin tht hr? sm ppl tink sick( n prob did smth sick 2)..thank god im functionin as a normal un-porn human being.totally civilized n awsm.i went 4 a walk w my bro n dog(which he unnecessarily peed n pooed much 2 d public ppl's disgust, still..)n kinda w my maid(jz for awhile) den yeahh..pretty much boring, but at least my nghbrhood is awsm enuf 2 b 80% lights out(unlyk vivek's muahahahah jk)..SAVE D EARTH!! GOGOGO! yay.*yawn* wayz, bro showed me d face detection in his macbk PRO(as he wud brag agn n agn..zzz)n yeahh, wen finally ltes cn turn on agn, i was assigned 2 sort out d photos in his laptop, which, by d way, has around more than 15,000 pix(he's seriously photo-craze)n yeahh...wayz, enuf abt tht.shud i con w d last hols wt-i-did? hmm k.scouts camp is totaly awsm, after d cooking thing, v(d f2 juniour scouts) had to built smth w bakau kayu(or wtv it's cld)wayz, loga had dis 'great' idea wich was surprisingly great(hahah, dun u jz luv sarcasm? gt it mostly fr u, lyn)--building a bridge-lyk thing, oh sry, a STAGE-lyk thing, wif dozens of lousy thin, plastic string, which sm1 claims it 2 b 'organic', bt wtv. i tink it turned out quite well, althou lopsided..(n mayb more lopsided after d weight of d unshameful guys tht sat on it 4 group photos).bt yeahh, at least it survived d rain...n v had to do dis sketch thing tht nite(MK-malam kebudayaan aka malam smth)n loga n othrs were lyk chattin/discussin abt d 'sketch', n obviously it turned out nt evry1 had a part(includin me, aly n mei yan)well, dey ask aly n me to b pink panther either 1 wich i hv no idea y, n dn anyway, loga smhw felt d nid 2 choose a song..n it was btween low n womanizer n my hump..hahah.omg, he damn funny...wayz, he started singin womanizer/dancing to it, n i had dis sudden word in my mind-LOGANIZER..Woooh...hahah..well anyway, v had dinner(which was surprisingly gud considerin d food my previous camps served me)n yeahh..v started MK..(wich, 2 b honest, was quite boring), n v were d 2nd last group 2 do it(jz wen i nided to go to d loo)n it was a mess(d actors startin killin each othr w a 'gun' n ended w a mess--'dead ppl'on d floor kinda thing)dn evry1 applauded n i dint even noe it ended(swt)..bt dey dint play Low(yeahh, finally loga decided a song--womanizer, bt changed it quickly 2 low wen one of d f1s used d same song)..n after d last presentation(god noes wt it was), loga had told d emcee to announce 'our' song--Low!! which is kinda strange bcz d recruits camp in tmn sea i went last yr were crazy abt 'Low' too..hmm. wayz, v started crazily dancin w no directions, n were exhausted wen it ended..n apparently, d parents were bored(i mean, v were bored w MK aredi, d parents wud b bored-er rite?)n, yeahh..after MK i practically flew to d toilet w Aly, Sandra n MYan...dn Supper.Ooh, after supper(wich i cn stil recl a guy mixin sm bery tea(i tink) w milo n said it tasted great O.o n Wilson decided to leave half a piece of bread fo d PLs wen dey cm bck after their meetin lol n dn v( f2s n seniors) started chattin d nite away, aly n i began askin ppl d 3 ppl game--v gv u - ugh.mom barking dis time.agn.Ciao!! luv u guys...xoxo

Diff ppl in diff places

2009-03-20T09:32:00.000-07:00

School holidays. spent most of it on camps. sigh. nt sure wether 2 feel sad, happy or stupid. bt i sure noe i had FUN!!!
k.let's start fr d beginnin..
Scouts camp (14th-15th March 2009)
awesum.gt myself a patrol.Rajawali(finally i cn rmb tht name!!).Patrol leader is hot buff Brian Win (haha ya tink? course im jk..lol), assistant-Alison Seow (awsm girl!! xDD)k.let's put it dis way.if im able to gv away credits, i tink aly will gt d most..she's been most suportive n helpful to me..in fact, she's a reli reli great fren!!xP k.better nt swell her head more.lolz.oh yeahh..i met sm pretty awsm frens too-Lysandra, Mei Yan(apologies a mil if i spelt ur name wrongly), Nadia, Li Wei(wait, is he counted?), Lucas(is he?), Wilson(lol, nt reli sure), Brian(well, he IS m patrol leader), Eu Jhin(i tink he's counted too)n many more crazy ppl!! i'll tel u wen i rmb agn..(sry u guys!!O.O)wayz, d 1st day was ok...we started off w cookin chicken(ovr d fire!), potatoes n eggs w mud(under d fire), n roti lilit(lyk 'firing' marshmallows-ish w nescafe powder ovr it!!)..n d whole area was filled w toxic smoke...(ugh)hate it..n, well, i luv d roti lilit best...hmm..yeahh, den d recruits came n stuffs n yeahhh, it's pretty gud..xcludin d part whr i gt bitten by mosquitoes d min i step in2 tht poisonous place...which, btw is d place bhind d new classrooms in d field..ughh, terrible...bt i must admit tht v had fun!! (despite d heat too)n i luv d roti lilit!! un42nately, our chicken wasn't exactly d best among all 4/5 patrols bcz, well, it isn't exactly COOKED either..haha so yeahh.umm, yeah..wayz, sir jeremy tasted our food n i guess it's okay, evnthou he dint eat d chicken, except pokin it w his fork..reli, he shudnt play w his food.wayz, after v let him taste/poke our food(which btw, he complimented our potatoes which tasted burnt(Aly n i tasted a lil afer washing d potatoes wen we took it out of d fire which was actually burnt bt d inside is still yellow, jz tastes burnt n all tht), yeahh, d roti lilit's d best(i mean, cmon, ppl were eating ours)yeahh..hey gtg dad barking already...again..xDD

Friday the 13th

2009-03-13T07:30:00.000-07:00

im kinda believing in dis stuffs nw whr dey say fri 13th is unlucky.ok.let's nt start fr me.alison.ok.as most of u guys noe, aly's hp gt confiscated(& othrs') n evry1 suspects d 1 hu gv pn wong/chong d names is Lava.bt wayz,v duno d truth bt her frens said so too la.so evry1 assumed its her..dn d unblivable happened wen alicia ask aly to go down 2 d pav whr dey were hvin PE.n alicia said d real 1 is ******(dun dare 2 write d name yet)n aly wanted to kill sm1, specially tht person..n tht person, coincidentaly was hvin PE as well,n w d asshole, d guy i ***e, did smth tht almoz made me cry..sm of u guys noe adi, bt pls dun spread it out by posting evrytin on d cbox wud u?

im sick of dis entire joke.it's nt funny.n it's nt fun.

People

2009-03-08T00:56:00.000-08:00

dun u think it's strange smtimes wen u walk evrywhr w a sad smile on ur face bt no1 seems to notice? bt wen sm1 popular does tht, even if he/she doesn't noe u, u wud b asking ppl around u abt tht popular sad-smile person?

shit. emo-zone agn.

Valentine's Day.

2009-02-14T07:04:00.000-08:00

I dun think i ever liked Valentine's Day.Especially when it's abt 3 weeks before exam.And when the someone didn't give you anything or say anything to you.tht's why.i dun lyk valentine's day.it makes the already-miserable u more miserable when you see other people receiving stuffs from their admirers/frens.i had 2 too.1 bookmark from alison,n a small lil heart fr kar yan.but thts nt d point of Valentine's day.though it's nice of you guys..

hols

2008-12-30T03:10:00.000-08:00

ok..my last post is reli depressing.oh well.i guess it was bcz i was hungry n lonely at tht time. ok.

i miss holidays already. i mean, dis is 1 of d best hols i evr had, i visited d cinema d most this 2 months,went to camp n met SO MANY AWESUM FRENS!! reli reli awsm..n i managed to gt ovr sm unpleasant stuffs,example:my ex-eng tuition teacher died(miss helene)..totaly sad(yishi better nt b reading dis),gt ovr sum stupid ex-crush which was ovr 2 yrs, more or less..(thx,ashlyn,for asking him.)ok.being lame agn..wayz,i managed to tidy part of my room(half wardrobe,n part of my shelves,n sum othr...parts, of my room.yeah, smth lyk tht..)

oh, 1 of d best things dis hols: i gt to meet aijin's CUTEEEEEEEEEEEE german-chinese neighbours!! i luv dem, they're lyk, totally ADORABLE!! i tink i mentioned tht b4, bt oh well.jz proves hw much i luv dem.XPPP n d 2nd best thing is...XYZ camp is AWESUM!! my fav part:talent time, obviously..n d part whr my groups win n i gt a free GSC movie pass n lots of junk fud..n my fav group's 'my' CG-E2!!! dey r totaly awsm!! we gt 2nd in talent time, n d main actor(liang jun, spongebob) gt d best actor award!! haha..i was 1 of d EVIILLLL BAAARRRRNEYS,with yilin n jin..it's GREAT...n yeahhh, i spent alot of my time dis hols(kinda) with jin n lin, n i realized hw awsm dey r!!(jk, noticed tht ages ago...yea rite..xP)lol..wayz, dey're awsum..n wen v came bck from camp, we gt to watch terminator 2 *yawn*, n watch liang jun n zhi wei(i tink thts his name) sleeppiiinng..*laughter* totally funny...n of cz, v gt 2 meet d awsm christian band(1am, cuzario's d cutest)n pastor cathryn(great pastor, she dint reli make me sleep). d worst in camp is tht v had to lyk wash our dishes n evrthin, which is disgusting, cz sum ppl dun wash d soap/dirt off deir plate nicely, so, yeahhh..u cn imagine...n bath time.*groans* i was so pissed on d first bath..d water lyk completely stopped..n i had to gt out of my stupid stall w only a BATH TOWEL on, n wait outside yilin's, beside me.n mind u, d dorms r lyk in well, little individual hses, n it's mixed w boys n girls, n d boys' toilet is rite beside d girl's...so yeahhh, bt i dun tink any guy so me, so yeahh.*phew* o k.oh yeahhh, n i gt to sit on guys' back(im reli hyper abt this..lol)during games,n ok, ask me abt d game n i'll xplain if u want, lazy to talk abt it here..n yeahh...it's totally awsm..i mean all d games tht were provided, n i gt to torture guys...*shrieks* n my games group got d 2nd..n thts whr i gt my mini maggie mee n movie pass..*shrieks even louder*

so, yeahh.thts sum camp..n xmas carolling, omg, it's totally funny,i met 3 new frens, sorta..simon, santa claus on 23rd dec, david, d guitarist n his wife..i may hv mentioned dem b4..ok, wtv.bt honestly, dey're funny..n simon is hot..*laughs*.i was santarina on 24th, n d 2nd hse we went for caroling was full of kids..n ...wow..dey r RELI CUTTTEEE, xcept for 1 thing. thrs dis totally sick red shirt boy, which keeps hitting me in d ass.*shivers*..bt anyway,thrs a guy in our carolling team, 14 yrs old, n he keeps taking d wand from d ''angel'', n dancing+ shaking his ass..totally funny, n xiao yan n i 4gt his name so we started calling him "angel man", which was HILARIOUS..dese days, i spend quite alot of time w xiao yan..yeahh, starting from d gathering my ex'sun skul tea gave..it was HILARIOUS, d gathering.n i was lousy wen i cudnt recognise 1 of my frens(sry yee le!), n well,only 1 guy turned up(zhuang xin) n it's kinda funny cz i gt to tease him abt him keep staring at d fish in d aquarium in teacher's hse..den v went out for pizza with teacher n her 2 sons, n i almoz puked cz i was freakin full..bt oh well.it's reli hilarious, tht nite..

oh yeahh.n after d camp 'my' cg had an outing, n we went for TGIF..*sighs lovingly*, bowling*swts tiredly*, n pool *laughs loudly*, oh n shopping w lin n jin between these awsm times..TGIF has reli great fud, bowling is still nt top on my fav sports list, n pool is HILARIOUS, mostly bcz of liang jun n othrs, for joking lamely n stuffs..so, yeahhh...d cg outing is reli great, n we ended d outing by runnng breathlessly to d old wing entrance from pool(new wing), n it turned out tht lin's dad wasnt thr yet..*groans* haha..but it's reli FUN!!!

so yeahh..my hols pretty much lyk tht, n stuffs...so yeah..it's great.i love holidays, nth cn change tht fact, tht lovely gorgeous, fab fact...xDDDDD

so..

haiz

2008-12-28T02:57:00.000-08:00

well.so i guess dis issit huh? 2008 came n is going.i keep thinkin abt last yr.if today's 2007, things r amazingly d opposite.ppl flattering, cheating, hurting me.bt i hv to gt a grip of reality, bcz even though u tink life sux, thrs more to life on d othr side.so yea.i luv u guys, my friends, family and relatives.even though u mite nt treat me as a real thing.lol.sounds lyk im gonna suicide.

ok.

gt a grip.

ok.

u noe i luv my frens rite?(shut up if u're gonna say no)
ok.

n u noe i luv my ppl rite?(hit urself if u're thinking of saying no)

ok.

if dis is 2007, i wud receive at least 12 xmas wishes.

bt dis is 2008, so i receive only 1.even though i sent sum to my frens.yeah.im lyk a 2007 person.exactly.2008? no 1 even noes sum1 hus name initials r ljy or c or..yep.thts me. so yeah.

im guessin 2009 i wud nt receive any xmas wishes.n im nt includin those church ppl hu automatically says merry xmas to evry singlepersn dey meet, bcz dey've been scheduled to do so.

ok.

i think i'll go now.jz wanna thank u guys for crossing my life.n to my new frens, Simon, David, Emily(his wife), Philene, Emily(her fren), yvonne, valerie, n god noes hw many r thr more..so yeahh..i'll stop here.i think.bye.merry christmas, everybody.

merry christmas.

ok.

wow

2008-12-21T07:22:00.000-08:00

*swts*
sry sry sry, bt im jz too LAZY to blog..*YAWN* oh well..so anywayz, to brief u guys abt my life...
1.went to XYZ Encounter Camp(11/12/08-14/12/08)...TOTALLY FUN!!! SERIOUSLY,u guys shud go!!! well,xcludin d part when d water stopped completely during bath, n i had to lyk, cum out n wait for yilin's stall w a towel, n 1 gal was lyk, r v suppose 2cum out lyk tht? n ok,LOL. +yilin's stall dint hv water either, so i had to bathe lyk bside d toilet bowl n squat down to bathe(stupid tube)...SO, YEAHH..ths d hard part..and d food..disgusting most on 1st day, eventually gt better, den last lunch...BOOM!! bck to normal..nt 2 mention, v hv to wash our plates OURSELVES..& as u noe guys dun wash theirs properly, so, yeah..kinda miracle i dint hv fud poisonin...bt, as d bible says*AHEM*, in EVERYTHING give thanks.so, here i m, givin thx tht im nt sick, bt i MISS MISS MISS CAMP!!!(xcept, well, U NOE)bt, oh well, d games r awesome..i gt to sit on Jason's back(thts d most fun part, i shud hv jumped on him), n 2 guys had to carry me..woohoo!!hey, dun think anothr way..bt, oh well, d best group among all i've been is d CG i jz joined(E2)!!oops, gtg, mom gonna bark..byee =PP

She's gone missing

2008-11-20T23:03:00.000-08:00

The owner of this blog has totally got bored with her blog.
mind her. :)

CARMEN!!!! You'd better update now or i'll kick your ass!!!
xD haha.
no, seriously. I mean it.

from your frenemy,
shinyiing.

LOLOLOLOLOLOL
gosh,spamming your blog is real fun!
:)

<3 Burke&Lorraine

2008-09-09T05:44:00.000-07:00

weeeeeh...long time dint blog de..omgosh, last saturday(6th Sep 2008) was TOTALLY FUN!!! My beloved couz, LOrraine Wong, got married wif my gran's sis' son's Burke Cheung from America...and the wedding?? Let's list d advantages:
1. I get to miss school
2. I get to miss Yamaha(piano)
3. I get to torture my cousins(although it was quite d opposite)
4. I get to meet American ppl n my ovrsea relatives
5. I get to drink wine/a sip of beer until my face went red

okay, so i drank wine until i gt a headache. but heyy, i still had d fun of it!! Juz training myself to drink when i grow older..haha

so my family, aunt helen n uncle john went to attend d church service in d afternoon...n 2 hrs b4 tht, we had lunch, took lyk a million photos of Lor n Bur in their wedding stuffs..Rachel n Charmaine were d bridesmaid n Tracy(Lor's best fren) was d maid of honor..For Burke, Mher, Dale, n James were d bestmen..anyway after d photo thing, we had dis tea ceremony n us couz had to wish d bride n bridesgroom n take angpau!! weeeh...xD d thing is, all couz(or possibly evry1) had to kiss LOr's cheek(she loves kisses) n practically all kissed her left cheek..LOLZ anyway, aduring d long tea ceremony( considering d amount of ppl), me n charm chatted wif Mher n i tried torturing Yang n Wei..Den we went to attend d romantic church ceremony wif d all-love sermon...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
At night, I borrowed moms high heels(reasons: 1. it matches my outfit 2. im too short) n had to learn how to balance on it...when i reached d restaurant, i signed on d guest book thing n went inside..after lyk half an hr, after Bur n LOr strolled into d ballroom n sat down FINALLY, i handed her my wedding card made for her..(juz made it tht morning..xP)den d food came n blablabla...i realized sumthin though, thr were 2 boxes on each person's place, one small gold box n one bigger silver box..inside were biscuits n cakes but d silver's cake was inside dis most adorable lil container tht u cn eat(eventough its a lil hard n its all sugar) but stilll...anyway, at one moment, we went out for sum pix n Yang showed me n charm a vid abt d rocky chair..i KNEW at d end a lil monster will suddenly appear..i KNEW n it reli did. n when it did, charm SCreamed which scared me n i screamed n evr1 started laughin..hmph

so anywayz, dat day was reli reli pleasant, n i cant wait for d nxt wedding to attend(hopefully my Kevin, my couz). post d piz sumtime later...

Holiday came n went in a blink of my dog's eye

2008-08-26T07:23:00.000-07:00

heyz ppl...my piano exams were lyk..ok, i blew them all, xpecially my abrsm one..aarrgh...bt hey i met sum pretty cute frens during d process of preparing...
btw d examiner was an english woman, n she jz kept saying"WanDarfool(wonderful)" n "luvley(lovely)" when i told her d titles of my exam pieces(wat did u think?)n after i finished playing, she was STILL scribbling on d exam sheet..which took lyk 10 seconds for her to finish, n continued scribbling agn after i started d nxt song...aarrgh

n yeah..i did a very stupid thing during d hols...i was supposed to go marching in d sahara field..n i stupidly went to skul...ok, tht was v embarassing, n d pbsm ppl were lyk marching thr n i was d only idiot scout praying tht anothr scout will come n i made lyk a hundred phone calls to lyk my frens n none of dem picked up..i was so disappointed, bt yeah its reli embarassing, 1 of d pbsm ppl saw me leaving n asked me if im one of dem n i was thinking: shit!

marching on monday...swt..im lyk d worst marcher among all T.T result of nt joining marching last time...

*oops, laptop no battery d..continue nxt time...

6H returns again!! n more...

2008-08-16T01:39:00.000-07:00

HOLsssss!!!!!i noe i shud b happy, bt i'm nt exactly THAT...i hv 2 piano exams this week!!! i'm doomed...to all yamaha nn abrsm ppl: gud luck in ur examss!!! i'm so AnXioUs >.<
6H!!So gud to see u guyz agn..i totally had fun last SUnday when i went bck to yuk chai for my 1st-evr yuk chai sports day(no kidding!!)wei jin looked friggin skinny..n his voice...omgz, freaking deep, wtv u say jin..n oh yeah..Alex was thr too..wif kang shaun..(wts he doin thr??)oh well.Miss u guys so muchh!!
oh yeahh..sabrina n cheryl n jy n kerwiin: pls do not blow my secret abt d guy...i noe u guyz won't anyway..bt jz incase..*sheesh* ok i'm gud...
n yeah to keng seng/volson: u start wif u lil 'revenge' thing one more time, n i'm gonna kill ya..O.o den u'll b 1 of d 1st guys who owns a gf n gt killed by me!!HAHA...oh btw, wts ur couz name agn? kinda 4gt..n u ass..u taught her all d *uck words...hmph..n liuh ennnnnnn...(1 thing gud abt dis girl is i cn exaggerate her name wif d same alphabet..haha
oo n i saw jeremy wong which smkdj luvs...ok, i'l b fair almost d whole smkdj..but geez it does feel lyk d whole skul when evry1 fr dj kept sayin his hot n so on...wtv
to wei jin: i'm serious abt u being skinny..n yeahh, wts tht u said abt me bein sum1's ex??!!! wt ex??
ok..below r d pix i/ashlyn/Grace(maybe) took in yuk chai..enjoy!!
hehe...

6h in da lift...in d end we cudnt gt into d classes/rooms cz dey locked dem all!! T.T

T.T i look sleepy in thr...n totally frightening...oh welll

O.o wt r those guys doin on d bench thr?? gayin??? lolz jk...

dis is whr yilin( sry u cn only c her hands) is sprinkling water onto kor kor yee...darn! i missed d part whr sit yee splashed a bottle of water onto kor kor yee...T.T *bckground: Ashlyn in green..Alyssa in specs n her fren...

O.o Guess who CX is text msgin n abandoning his joy of playing bball???

oo look...d guys r lettin d young kids a turn on a shoot...

oh yeahhhhh, dis 1 is 1 of d BEST PIX EVER!!! u cn actually c Kylthur 'dancing' on air..haha...credits go to Ashlyn(Shin Yiing) for taking it n me to post it!! XD

a scene of bball game...

in front: Volson's couz in blue hse sports shirt, volson n volson's othr couz(i lyk her better than d othr 1...) background: wei jin n those bball playin ppl

dis...is *ugh* Volson...he luvs gettin his face stuck on d camera lens...lolz

d 2nd best pic by Ashlyn or Grace Kam...cz it's blur..but u can see keng Seng eating ice-cream!!HAHA GOtchA!

Last but not least...3 HOt gals staring at ya!! lolz persannya..ok fine i admit..i'm NOt HoT okay? but if any1's interested in d other 2 gals..feel free to contact me n fish out their contacts!! lolz..(from right: Grace Kam, Ashlyn n I)...

I am finally BACK...

2008-08-08T07:16:00.000-07:00

hey ppl! sry for nt updatin 4 like.......2000 yrs? ok, anyway...who's goin bck to yuk chai for sports? woohoo..hope to c u all thr..(if i do go anyway..) yeah so nxt..

i hv anothr crush...haha..n u r nt gonna find out...wakaka(O.o i rhyme!)
i splashed kerwiin wif water from his head..agn.....haha, enjoyed d bath, kerwiin?
i shared some secrets wif 2 of my frens(shh..)
i fed my dog(ok, dis is gtin boring)
o yeah! n i got my braces!!! so dun gt surprised if u hvnt seen me for a looooooooong time...
n for those who still don't know wat happened to me for d past 2000 yrs..i failed prefects, so pls STOP askin me whether i passed anot, k? gracias
btw, xin yi, zhook-yueng and bei jie bcum prefects..gratz...
i managed to fin 2 projects...phew!
i'm gonna take 2 piano exams in 1 week...T.T(wish me luck ppl)
i learned a secret...
i went to genting last weekend..d indoor rides are terrible!!! i rode wif my bro on d euro express 5 times, bumper car 3 times, motion pix once( alibaba?? swt) and d flying coaster once( cz we had to pay..T.T) d flying coaster ROXX!!! un4tunately, bro bought d wrong tickets...oh well..
oo..n best of all...i patched things up wif a fren i hvnt been in talkin terms wif..^^

o kay...so, today is d openin of d olympics...i dun gv a damn..i reli dun understand superstition...why 8/8/08-8:08:08???wts wif d chinese 8 *fart*?? swt...like arranging d olympic time 888888888888 will make u prosperous or something? tht is so swt....

oh yeah...to kerwiin n jeremy: any1 say a single "ahp" agn..n u're DEAD, or mayb u'll gt anothr free splash bathin!!^^ hAhA

anyway, does anyone want gathering?? okay, i sound like a reporter..
gtg, ppl..to kimberly: thx for ur comments...i'll link u as soon as i learn hw to..lolz

c ya ppl!! xD

For Aslan!For Narnia!! ^^

2008-06-01T10:40:00.000-07:00

omgosh i juz watched Prince Caspian on Saturday n it's so COOL!!! i pity those who dun gt a chance to watch...i went to d theaters wif soo n potato..n aj u r so right, Prince Caspian is SO HOT!! n its way unfair Susan gets to kiss him...=(
too bad Susan n Peter won't be acting in the next movie...(maybe Lucy gets to kiss Prince Caspian next time! LOL)
Haiz...
i getting lamer n lamer each day leh, im gonna fall apart one day...
oh boy( to mun lee: oh girl)
great im an emo-freak now..
hols r coming closer to an end now...im getting less perkier..
hopefully when my time ends i would look hot, even if im not...=P

the return of...ME..

2008-05-14T05:43:00.000-07:00

okay, seriously, exams suck, and i m so doomed on friday coz it's sejarah...UGH.. anyway, i'm back so dun say i nvr upgrade my blog o k.
next...
i had a crush. now dun go oh let's go find out coz i will nvr let u noe.besides, it was d past. juz wanna ask you guys, my best pals, whether i gv up on him is a good thing anot... n dun go n tell out his name or even describe him! k nxt...
i had this clique in school, ok, nt reli clique, but something like that, i used to think they were ok, but nw i sigh whenever they're here n my heart burns with, well, u noe heat,duh...
changing topic..
6h ppl!!! i miss u guys so freakin much!! hearing from you guys is great, but i wanna See you guys!! hopefully someone would hold a gathering this year...(potato volunteers!!!) ChuAn XiN!!! Your Potato!! lol, tht was lame, sry guyz...XP
n yeah...
wish you guys all the best in your exams! Good Luck! Wish me too lar weih!!!

* Gimme some feedback will ya, ppl? i look like a total dork wif no coments leh...

Scouts camp...

2008-04-20T01:34:00.000-07:00

okay, i only can say scouts' camp is nice ok, be satisified with that, except the video ghost thing is so not working, scouters!!! oh well, at least i passed as a scout! juz wanna say thanks to Sir Kah Hoo and Sir Chun Tatt and Sir Yew Jin and Sir Jeremy + Miss Kitt Lei for guiding me with da tests!!! to Sir Kah Hoo: dun be modest, it was juz a brief compliment last night, n btw i so passed d tests!!!HAH!! Sir Chun Tatt: BERJIMAT Sir Yew Jin: thanks for d sejarah tips!!! Sir Jeremy: thanks for passing my history test although i suck so badly in it Miss Kitt Lei: thanks for helping me draw d star thing!
In other words, thanks to anyone who had help me out wif scouts stuffs...

Ouch...

2008-03-31T19:37:00.001-07:00

oh man, i fell in school when i was rushing in through the front gate, n while i was TRYING to run to d "spiderman wall" coz d 2 freaks in front of me were lyk so slow, i tried to overtake n i fell, seriously, i didn't even bliv i fell, until i felt d pain throbbing, ugh, dis sucks...n now my knee n, well, below my knee of my right leg r bruised thx to me, swt, i'll nvr run up ever agn, i'll walk up..

I'm gonna miss my lovely holiday...

2008-03-15T21:00:00.000-07:00

Haiz...My holiday is almost over, tomorrow, no, wait, 12 more hours to school days. I'm gonna see my friends agn, and TEACHERS, and HOMEWORK, I'm so not looking forward to school days... ugh, in fact I already hate it before it started..so...haiz...

CF Camp

2008-03-13T08:34:00.001-07:00

CF ROXX!!! One thing i reli reli reli love about tmn sea is CF!!! it reli fills me wif joy when i'm in the cf camp, and fills me wif sadness when i'm about to leave cf camp...haiz..time flies even faster than a lightning...anyway, cf camp had dis angel-mortal-thing, and my mortal is Melvin Goh...it turned out he's d guy who plays the keyboard, not bad, i was thinking, if he respects his 'angel', i might gt to listen to free music!! ^^ jkjk...anyway, my 'angel' didn't do much, except gave me one tiny note just before dey took down d envelopes... anyway, like what Rachel said, be thankful, so i'm gonna be thankful...but i'm also gonna be abit modest, like Rachel..lol..., i must say, i did better than my angel, at least i gave my mortal 2 notes and a bar of chocolate... =P .. i met loads of friends there...Samantha, Emma, Huey Lin, Candice, Trisha, Joanne, Jamie, Hock Jeen( my distant cousin...lol), blablabla...anyway, CF CAMP ROXX full stop. ^^

this is my life

2008-03-08T04:49:00.000-08:00

these few days im gettin more and more depressed, i feel really stressed out, it just feels like everything is falling apart, n i'm in a mess...ugh, i hate it..
seriously, wats d point of school if you have nothing to do, i feel really confused and forgetful...u could actually tell from d school's last few days, i kept forgetting abt bringing stuffs and d worst was getting scolded and threatened br teacher, honestly, dis is a realy common thing, you don't have to be so blowed up!!!
i feel like having a suicide, no, really. I'm totally serious, and no one hardly talks to me at school, so i actually get bored, and even I don't feel like talking so much, i just feel like DYING, and to make things worse, ppl who loves to choose d wrong timing used that time to criticize me, and hurting me, making things worse for me again and again....seriously, you make me SO PISSED OFF!!!
Some of my friends asked me why i'm being so emo, no kidding, how can i NOT BE?!?!
I have no idea how to explain how I feel, but i can assure you one of the reasons is bcoz if my FAMILY, i meant my parents and my brother, I feel that they love me the least and neglects me most of the time, the worst is PICKING ON ME, you have no idea how suffering it is...all these started ever since i was quite small, and it just goes on like this till now, they pick on me just bcoz I'm the youngest, they blame everything on me just bcoz i'm the youngest, i really hate my life, i just hope i can find happiness sooner than soon...

wtf did i do?

2008-01-20T03:58:00.000-08:00

school is getting worse and worse each day, don't ask me why, it ain't just right okay? I'm getting pissed off!! Some ppl LOVES to CRITICIZE abt my family and i!!! Oh yes, and while im trying to defend it, My FAMILY does hurts me!! seriously, wtf did i do in dis whole Fking life??? Okay, i dun usually use tht word unless im reli reli reli angry... LIKE NOW